I understand that he was just a dog. I honestly do. That didn't change how I felt when I had to take him to the vet to put him down. Now that this is over, I realize how much time and energy I had spent trying to make his last summer a happy one for him. I think I did that, though.
Now, that Spike is gone, I'm still crying, but not as much. I really miss him, a lot! Yet, it's time to get life back to normal. I came home from visiting my daughter. It was good to get away. Now, I have to begin sorting through the messes that Spike made. Remember the chair he ate? Now, I can take care of that. Now, I have the time to get my life back to normal and to do the things I wasn't able to do when I sat outside because Spike was outside by his tree.
Soon, I know that I'll even start looking at other dogs. Right now, I still feel that it's a bit unfaithful to do that. Soon, I know I will. It will take a bit of time, but life will get better again. I have no doubts about that. I'll never forget Spike, but it is time to move on. Soon, more blogs about beads and beaders. Just like it was time to take Spike to the vet for one last time, it's now time to take a step away from him. I'll always cherish the memories. He'll have a place in my heart, but it's time to move on.
Tomorrow, I'll take my second walk without him. It wasn't so bad today. The walk felt good. I look forward to tomorrow.
If I where there I would come to you for a walk and try to make it easier for you. But I am here, far away and can only tell you ... that I am here, thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteWish you the power to manage a new start,
xoxox
Manuela
Hi Mallory
ReplyDeleteYou are very strong and have a positive outlook. I know you must miss Spike dearly. I have another friend who lost her beloved dog this week too. I'm sorry for what you've gone through..what a tough thing to do. From your posts, it sounds like Spike truly did enjoy the summer and that you created many more happy memories.
Cindy
www.sweetbeadstudio.com
Ditto what Manuela and Cindy said-- thinking of you, and thinking you were a wonderful human for Spike to have in his life.
ReplyDeleteBig hugs. Yes, you made his last summer a wonderful and happy one. Spoiled him rotten, which is the job of a human for their babes, I believe. You're doing great...trudge forward with him in your heart, and as you see, each day will be a little sweeter. Love ya' - Samma
ReplyDeleteI am so sarry for your loss. Big fuzzy hugs from me & my pups.
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