Monday, April 20, 2009

Sometimes, We just have to accept things

If you've read my blog, even on a frequent basis, you know that Spike, is now and has been, a very important part of my life for almost 12 years now. Right now, he's downstairs whining. No, he's not in pain. He's just being himself. The whining drives me insane. I love him dearly, but, as with life, sometimes, we just have to accept things about those we love.

Last week, I took Spike to the vet. The vet told me that he's in renal failure. I googled renal failure in dogs, and the most common cause of renal failure in dogs, is old age. If Spike survives to his next birthday, (May 25th) he will be 12. That is VERY old for a dobbie. I am blessed to have had him with me for as long as this. Each day is a gift.

I'm crying as I type this. He's not gone, yet, and he's still very spunky. My consolation is that there is no pain with renal failure. There is confusion, and renal failure explains why Spike has been confused this winter at times. He's still very happy. His heart and liver are strong. I do know, though, because of this, that, most likely, he won't die in his sleep, as I had hoped. I know that to take him to the vet will be one of the worst days of my life, but I hope, that he and I will both know when it's time.


Deb said...

Ahh Mallory - I was sad for you when we spoke of this, & my heart hurts for you now.

Acceptance isn't ever easy, & it never fully prepares you. It can't.

Spike will let you know or, like the potty breaks he decides to take every time we chat, he will just decide that he is ready.

Just know that I am here.

Linda said...

I'm sooo sorry to hear about your dear Spike. I know exactly how you feel. My two dogs are such a part of me that I dread the day I must say good bye. Give Spike a kiss for me and I give you a big HUG. I can't tell which is better....the unconditional love of a dog or that of a child.

kelleysbeads said...

It is so hard when our pets get so old that we must make these tough decisions. I have tears for you thinking about this and hope that when the time comes, you have a good friend with you.

Maggie said...

Mallory, I'm teary eyed as I write this. I've soon enjoyed getting to know and love Spike over the last year or so. My nieces talk about him and always want to see your pictures of him dressed up or hiding.

You've given and received lots of love these last 12 years. Lots of blessings.

Wishing you strength, courage, wisdom, and lots of love.

Sue Choppers-Wife / said...

My old companion has been gone 8 years now, but I still feel him at my side at never leaves. I know we need to mentally prepare ourselves for something like this, but the time to grieve is not now...take every moment you can to just live together in the 'now'.

(((((((((((Mallory & Spike))))))))))))

angelinabeadalina said...

I'm so sorry to this about Spike, Mallory. I don't know what else to say...words won't replace that snuggleSpike's presence once he's gone. Hugs to both of you.

Sharon Driscoll said...

I just want to hug you and Spike!